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I hate this body.I hate this body that betrays me when emotions run rampant
and my veins constrict around blood that flows too fast.
When my chest stiffens to hinder the movement
of the lungs that there dwell, causing me to jolt
when breath finally forces its way in.
I hate this body that will only stop shaking when I stop breathing,
every intake of air shuddering dry through my clenched teeth.
I try so hard to appear collected but this body betrays me,
separating itself from the rational parts of my lonely mind
that just keep repeating
"Stop. Stop. Stop."
I hate this body that proves weak when faced with anxiety.
Irrationality lives in my heart like a ghost,
pumping its way through my arteries to all the vital organs
with a force that no power of mind or will could hinder.
I hate this body because it reminds me of my fear, of you.
Because I never felt this way before you snapped
and threw me to the ground.
And now I try and try but trust refuses to sink in
and I feel the sorrow of it in my bones becau
Parenting for Sex AddictsThe half-day.
We are not those folks that need an occasion to try. And that’s what they call it, too. Trying. As if the very idea of it is taxing. It’s not taxing and we are not those people.
No. We do not go by some magical calendar. Schedules aren’t really our thing in general. That’d be too organized. Too stuffy. Too… I don’t know… too planned. And we’re not the type of people whom plan.
If we could—plan—our lives would be much different. I think. It’s hard to say because this is how we’ve always been.
Our very togetherness is a result of impulse. I’m almost certain that the amount of time it took us to decide to move in together was significantly shorter than the amount of time it took us to remember each other’s names. We might have had our first conversation moments after that first… what I mean to say is we didn’t plan. Because planning would have been much t
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